this is paralysis.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 02:18:55 GMT

i had an entry in here, but i deleted it and decided to start over. new year, new try at trying to keep an active livejournal. har har.

today at school was the worst. going back after christmas vacation always sucks. half of the teachers didn't even have us do anything. everyone was tired. i was in a bad mood. i'm still tired, so i'll probably end up in bed early. lately i'm just hating school because i'm so far behind and it's frustrating. i wish i wasn't a hardcore procrastinator and that i actually had some sort of care about school. i know it's important and that i should be trying to do my best, but i just can't bring myself to care about it.

today i had to ride the bus for the first time in months. that sucked. i hate riding the bus. not to mention i'm pretty sure i was the only person with my drivers license who was riding it.

i got 30+ friend requests on myspace. to be honest, i really hate having a huge friends list on myspace. when i was in 8th grade or something, i had over 1,500+, just because i was bored a lot of the time. now i see it as more people to possibly read a bulletin i post about my blog.

i love when i get mail, and i got TWO packages today. one was my sweater that finally came from Urban Outfitters. I should've had that sweater months ago, but my dad ganked my money and put it in the bank account before i could buy anything with it. the second thing, was a CD from some band that wants to be reviewed for my blog. uhm, i don't know how i'm going to do this because i really don't like it? it's kind of like johnny cash: the lyrics are alright, but it's more like rhythmic talking.

New Years Resolutions:

+Try to care more about schoolwork. If I miss a day, get my work asap and get it done.
+Work on my appearance more. Lose some weight. Wash my face twice a day. Brush my teeth twice a day. Teeth whiteners. etc.
+Stop procrastinating!!!!!!!
+Have more of a 'buddhist outlook' on things. Try not to swear as much, don't talk so badly about people, etc.
+Get motivated. Though that could also fall under 'stop procrastinating.'
+Take more pictures.
+Get a job! I'm going to need luck on that though. Finding a job around here is impossible.
+Save whatever money I make from said job.
+Go on some roadtrips (talk parents into letting me go on said roadtrips.)
+Decide wtf i want to do when i get to college.

When I woke I was alive in somebody's room

this is paralysis.